...and explain why I'm changing how I participate in WIAW.
A little birdie directed me to the comment section of this blog, which I don't recommend you visit if you want to avoid or recover from an eating disorder. (And please, don't rush over there and defend me in the comments. I appreciate the sentiment, but this girl does not need any more attention, and I don't need any defending. I just want to address a few things.)
I found this quote:
I certainly wouldn’t read a blog written by someone who repulses me.
Take Sable, for instance… I stopped reading her blog last year because
I hated her manly muscular body and “I was anorexic now I’m not” fat
girl attitude (and GOMI member). And her blog content was boring.
Still is. Terribly so! But I recently linked to her from another
girl’s blog because I was curious to see her fat, and wow! She’s
skinny now! That completely changes my interest level. I shall “read”
her blog because of the thin pictures. She’s totally an inspiration in
that department.
Take Sable, for instance… I stopped reading her blog last year because
I hated her manly muscular body and “I was anorexic now I’m not” fat
girl attitude (and GOMI member). And her blog content was boring.
Still is. Terribly so! But I recently linked to her from another
girl’s blog because I was curious to see her fat, and wow! She’s
skinny now! That completely changes my interest level. I shall “read”
her blog because of the thin pictures. She’s totally an inspiration in
that department.
So.
I just want everyone to know - and I think most of you do - that gaining muscle will not make you look like the picture on the left. If you gain some muscle and a decent amount of fat (I probably gained in a 2:1 fat:muscle ratio with some extra water/bloat, unfortunately), you will look like the picture on the left.
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| Left: this spring; Right: last week |
Nicole's remarks don't mean much at all to me. That's not the reason for this post. Call me "fat" as much as you want: the way my body looks does not define who I am as a person.
However, I am concerned by her use of my "thin pictures" as "inspiration." As a recovered anoretic, the very last thing I want to do is become thinspiration. I will, therefore, not be posting a full day of food intake for the duration of my contest prep. On WIAWs, I may post some of my favorite meals from each week, but I will not disclose amounts, calorie counts, etc.
What are your thoughts? Is there anything else I can do to avoid becoming thinspo?
I saw this article last night and found it quite interesting.. Don't worry, 99% of women don't want to look sexy and muscular like you anyway; apparently they just all want to be waifs ;P
ReplyDeletehttp://www.fitmole.net/the-essential-guide-to-female-training-for-a-sexy-feminine-physique/
I have to admit, I'm really not surprised by this. A lot of women don't want to look muscular at all, which is fine by me - to each her own!
DeleteIt's HARD to put on muscle!! :) I can squat and deadlift all day and I'm just as skinny as always lol. I just feel good lifting big!
DeleteAnd regarding all the negativity above, wow. I can't believe someone would personally call you out like that! And retract it for the reason she did. Dummmbbb.
Seriously hard!! It takes SO long. It's much easier & quicker - for most people - to achieve the "skinny" look.
DeleteI feel so bad, Sable, as I believe it was me though who you got to know Nicole, and now you have to deal with all of this.
ReplyDeleteI’ve always found you beautiful, kind, patient, considerate, generous and just lovely. And you have inspired me to dream bigger and seek those dreams with dedication and patience.
Nothing to do with thinspo.
Though I’d kill for that booty. ;)
xo.
Don't feel bad Greta!!! Truly, I'm not bothered by what she wrote. I'm just using it as a tool to initiate discussion about thinspo and keeping my blog a healthy, happy place =)
DeleteYou are too kind to me - thank you so very much, as always, for this comment =) =)
Wow Sable. Seeing shit like that sends me through the roof. Clearly that girl has problems. I don't think as bloggers we can worry about other peoples opinions of us or whether they twist our fitness levels into "thinspiration." (Hate that word, btw.) Crazy people will always be out there. You can't prevent the thoughts of others.
ReplyDeleteI think you may be right. I was thinking along these lines earlier this morning. I remember when I was in the darkest parts of my disorder, I'd turn anything into thinspo - even pictures of obese people. I don't think there is a way to completely prevent someone from using something as thinspo, unfortunately.
DeleteYou may be referred to as 'thin-spiration' by one, but youre 'fit-spiration' to many... just read your comments below every post :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Abby -- this is a really great point. I think less than 1% of my readers use anything I write in a negative way. I guess the question is, do I write with that 1% in mind?
Delete...and to what extent?
DeleteYou cant please everybody! Personally, I think for a reader to turn your blog into something negative they would need quite an imagination...
Deleteamen to what abbbyLynnn said. You're a fitspiration and I admire the fact that you're GENUINE-- you don't hide your struggles with body image and you don't go around promoting "I'm perfect 24/7" That's why you're so awesome-- because you're REAL! Don't ever change Sable, ignore the losers out there in the world and know we have your back. :)
DeleteEr, wow. I'm slightly flabbergasted and appalled by the comments you quote. I've always thought your blog was a very honest and informative one, and that you're one of the nicest and most tolerant bloggers I read.
ReplyDeleteI know that anyone who puts information out into the public domain does have a certain responsibility about what they publish, but what you've done is (in my view) is responsible, informed and considerate to others. So I don't think you can be considered responsible for how people choose to interpret whatever you publish, be that pictures of your (beautiful and healthy) body, or the food you eat, in much the same way as the responsible seller of a kitchen knife can't be held responsible if someone misuses it.
But (sticking with that example!) in much the same way as someone selling something that could be dangerous, publishing images of yourself also means the images can be misused or misinterpreted for whatever reason by people. In other words, I think you've done everything you could be expected to do to avoid being "thinspiration" (I hate that word too!), but almost inevitably, because of the way you look now, there are some people who are going to use your pictures for that purpose. Equally, of course, there will be (hopefully many more) people who find your pictures inspiring and use them for positive reasons. But if you're uncomfortable with the potential negative results, then I guess the only solution is not to publish pictures.
You publish information that I think is really valuable for someone doing contest prep (or indeed just trying to lean out significantly for whatever reason); for that reason I hope you'll continue to publish amounts and details about your diet, because it indicates just how much work and planning needs to go into doing it safely and well. And that sort of sensible considered information (especially from a blog as well grounded in reality as yours!) is extremely important, simply because there is so much misinformation out there.
Sorry. This is a bit of an unedited rambling stream of consciousness because I'm at work and sneakily blogging in my lunch break!
You bring up a really, really great point here. I think it would be a service to the community at large to be honest about how much effort goes into contest prep, and how unhealthy it is by its very nature. (I mean - I'm at a very, very deep deficit now and am exercising quite a bit, weighing everything I eat, including veggies - all very unhealthy habits if I committed to them for the long term. I'm not saying that everyone's contest prep is like this, but it's like that for some of us who are prone to being overweight, so to speak - my body's natural weight is 140lb - I've weighed that for most of my life and typically once I start eating intuitively I go right back there.) I think that fact gets smoothed over by some bloggers, whether or not it's intentional.
DeleteI get aggravated when I see skinny women called fit or muscular (especially when I know they don't lift weights or eat healthy). Unfortunately there are many women out there that don't understand this mindset. I always disliked when I was called skinny, most women just don't seem to know the difference...all they see is fat and skinny.
ReplyDeleteI don't like being called skinny, either. I'm back at my job at the Pediatrician's office. I was away for about a month, so now all the moms I was friendly with are making comments like "You're so tiny!" or "You're so skinny!" I just try to focus on the fact that I *am* skinnier and tinier (word?) than I was the last time they saw me and that's why they're using those words.
DeleteWow. Just wow.
ReplyDeleteClearly that girl has problems!
I don't think you need to worry about how one girl perceives your blog. I see you as an example as to what heavy lifting and hard work will do for you (I used to be of the heavy-lifting-makes-you-big mindset, but your blog clearly disproves that theory)as opposed to "thin-spiration".
I'm so glad that's why you read, and what you get from reading here =) I just want to be sure that's what everyone (or nearly everyone) takes away from what I write - that you can recover from an eating disorder, that lifting heavy won't make you manly, and, you know, miscellaneous tips and tricks along the way :)
DeleteBoring?? I absolutely love this blog! You are so real, interesting and post about stuff (healthy) people care about! It's gross that blogs/ideas like those you discuss here exist on the Internet...but it's the Internet. If people are going to use you for negative purposes, know that a lot will use you for POSITIVE inspiration to get healthy/pursue a fitness goal. You can't stop the negative, so ignore it and just love the positive :)
ReplyDeleteI think you're probably right. If someone is going to use what I write/look like in a negative way, there's almost nothing I can do about it - it's the internet, and no amount of censoring will ensure that things get interpreted the way I want and used for the purposes I want. I just want to make sure I'm being as responsible as humanly possible - for everyone's sake.
DeleteI was just formulating a response in my head, and then Wonky said everything for me.
ReplyDeleteI will add, though, that it's naive to think that no-one would look at you now as some kind of physical role model because by most standards you do look 'better' (I hate to use the term and I apologise for it) than before. That's not to say you were fat, or lazy, or disgusting before, but by the way we judge bodies, for the most part, you have less body fat, more defined muscle and therefore, subjectively a more desirable shape.
The only way to avoid becoming 'thinspiration' is to stop blogging. It's not right to stop posting about your contest prep because of that: isn't the whole point of competing about the process of transforming one's body through being disciplined to the point of, yes, being borderline obsessive about food in terms or calories and macros? Documenting that transformation can be an integral part of the process; by the logic you're suggesting, bodybuilding.com would have to shut down. People will find thinspiration anywhere if they are in that kind of mindset.
I can understand why you would be upset, because I would be crying buckets, but I feel your blog is a valuable resource and also source of hope for many that transformation is possible if you work hard enough for it, and I would hate to see you censor yourself for no good reason. Readers have responsibility too; anyone with a degree of sense would not and could not be damaged by what you write and those that don't can visit far more 'triggering' blogs than yours.
xxx
*of calories and macros - sorry!
DeleteI think you're absolutely right. And even if I start blogging, those who wish to will use someone else for thinspo / for negative purposes. There's no shortage of healthy living blogs and as you mentioned, even if everyone stopped blogging, there's Bodybuilding.com, RxMuscle, SiouxCountry (specific to physique competitors), etc. And I hear the forums at Runner's World are even worse.
DeleteIf I'm not going to blog honestly and openly, I'm not going to blog at all. The whole point of a blog is that it can be real in ways a magazine, newspaper, TV show, etc. cannot. And I do definitely think I am going to continue to blog. I just want to do it as responsibly as possible, although I do recognize that what people take away from what I write is entirely beyond my control.
Of course your readers want to immediately defend you, I know I want to as well. Trying to look at it from another perspective though...I'm not sure you can or need to change anything. You're trying to show prep for a contest. Maybe flex more and show those muscles LOL. Seriously, though, you've worked your butt off for this comp. Don't let anyone take that away out of ignorance.
ReplyDeleteI know - it is tempting but really I've been called far worse things than fat!! haha1 Next time my boss calls me ugly I'll sic you all on him, deal? ;-)
DeleteI think you're right - there's really not much I can do to ensure that the info/pictures/etc I provide are used the way I intend them to be. I can try to frame and phrase things as well as possible, but once I hit "publish," whatever I wrote can be used in just about any way.
not sure what's worse, that the blogger deems other blogs as 'read-worthy' only if they meet her criteria for thin-ness or that she thinks you're fat in your picture from the Spring. In any case, that's a lowest common denominator that I don't think you want to appeal to. Keep doing what you're doing as long as what you're doing is what's right by you.
ReplyDeletePeople are rarely at the height of their health and fitness when peaking for physique competition but many people and virtually all advertising media use competition pictures of male and female physiques as inspiration. That can definitely lead to issues but I don't know that you can do anything about it other than to continue to share your process, thoughts, and feelings as you do so well on this blog.
Hey Craig! I didn't know you still read here after my deadlift dropped below 240 ;-)
DeleteYou are right. I can't write for the lowest common denominator - which (who?) in truth probably isn't all that common. And I do want to address and illustrate that I am *not* at my healthiest right now, although I look my best. I think that's an important tidbit to get out & in the open.
There are advanatges and disadvantages to social media - blogging being a part of that. However, the nature of comments such as those above are indicative of a person who is not a peace with themselves. As a result, the need to rank order as better or worse comes into play, creating harm to another person, whether intentional or not. This is not how you operate. You do carry yourself with care and compassion, you are considerate of whether what you say or do will have a negative or harmful impact...all indicative of a person who has peace with themselves. I am happy for you and your journey is inspiring...not because you are thin or fat (such insanely subjective terms anyway)...but because you work at growing, learning and making better decisions. Also, more signs of someone who has found peace with themselves. Alternately, I am sad for this person. No point in putting down or defending. I just pray that she does find peace in her life - with herself and others. And remember - your blog is your blog. It's your life, your experience, your journey. Others can choose to follow or not - to gain some from it or find fault in it. But that is their sh*t. You just keep being you. You have worked too hard to uncover who that is, which is the real inspiration. :)
ReplyDeleteWhen I say "above" I mean in the blog post...not the comments to the blog post. :)
DeleteJulie - wow. What can I say to that? Thank you so much.
DeleteI do think that you're right - if someone is in a dark place, they will use nearly anything to fuel that darkness, whatever shape it takes - an eating disorder, an addiction, whatever. Heck, I used to use EVERYTHING as thinspo. Everything. Thin people, obese people, people who looked at me strangely, even my *grades.* ("I got a B, I don't deserve to eat." Yeah.) So I do think I will continue to be candid and open about this process; I'll try to do so as responsibly as possible, but as Craig said, I can't write for the lowest common denominator.
Oh dear :( I'm sorry you've been subject to this, but you're handling it great (of course) and FWIW I think you're right to decide not to post entire days' eats, cals, macros etc.
ReplyDeleteYou rock, you have such a good head on your (not manly at all - "before" or "after"!) shoulders.
That blogger should head over to my blog and see some of my pics, she'd freak out at my she-hulk-revoltingness hahahahaha! ;D x
haha she would hate you!! Altogether too empowered, not to mention muscular ;-)
DeleteYou have a BANGIN' body, Sable but I've never looked as you as thinspiration. If anything I look at you as a source of inspiration and proof that anything is possible with hard work & perserverance. I don't think there's anything you can do in terms of how others view your blog..just keep it real and continue what you doing- for every hater, there's another person who loves your blog!
ReplyDeleteDefinitely - and I love love love all my positive, smart readers =) I think you're right - if someone is looking for thinspo, they will find it somewhere, no matter how much I censor myself.
DeleteI don't have any experience with an eating disorder, so take that into account when I say, I don't think you should stop posting what you're eating. I think it's an interesting look at what it takes to do what you're doing, that it's not just magic that poofs that fat and bloat away. That it's work, and dedication.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I wouldn't take ANYTHING I read on that blog seriously. I've been reading her off and on for awhile, and she's one crazy bitch. You just can't let someone like that (or their followers) have any weight (ha). They're irrelevant, because they're fucking crazy.
But, you know, that's me without the perspective you have.
She is definitely nuts. She and I had it out last year when she saw a comment I made about her on GOMI. (I don't remember exactly, but it was probably something about the fact that I think she is a horrible, horrible influence on the ED blogging community. Which, um, she is. You can recover, people.)
DeleteI think you do raise a good point that I should be honest and transparent about just how much it takes to get stage-ready, and I probably will continue to be open about the experience.
I really don't get how this blog is suddenly so much better or more interesting now that you're carrying around less fat! Umm, no, it's always been great!
ReplyDeleteI'll be the first to say it.. what a bitch! :)
I don't get it either! Must be magic ;-)
DeleteI can't believe that someone would actually write something so horrible and messed up. Clearly I'm a bit sheltered but seriously, I am shocked. On a side note can you please do a post on how you got such a great gluteus maximus :-)??
ReplyDeletehaha I will!!!!!!
DeleteOmg babe? I am going to email you! OMG ???????
ReplyDeleteThis is just heart breaking to me. People are honestly so mean. I love you so much
Please do!!!! =) It's been so long!
Deletejust wanted to tell you that i think your blog is great and there is nothing YOU can or should do to change it. there will always be someone who will have an issue. you are honest and healthy and i think it comes across loud and clear!
ReplyDeleteYou don't get an ass that fine without protein and squats. That ass was build by calories and weights, and it's fiiiiiiiiiiiiine.
ReplyDeleteI know this comment is a little too frivolous for the post's subject matter. And maybe a little creepy. But, it's worth noting that your body would not look so amazing if you were starving yourself to be skinny.
I'm going to have to give Rose and Amen!
Deletehaha - thank you guys so much! You are too sweet =)
DeleteUmmmm....what the f***! (Excuse me) I cannot even believe this. Sometimes I really do hate the internet for giving people the power to say whatever the hell they want without consequence. I don't think I've ever wanted to reach through the computer and give you a hug more!
ReplyDeleteYou are NOT thinspiration. I cannot say that enough. I think if someone said that to me, it would be absolutely devastating. You are beautiful, strong and yes, you are inspirational - but certainly not for being 'skinny'. You are beautiful in both of the pictures above, so it's sad that someone would base their value of you on your fat levels. NOT that you were fat in the first picture, my god. I don't even know what to say. I'm so ragey right now.
Aww Tara - this means so much to me, especially coming from you. I sincerely hold your opinion in very high esteem.
DeleteI think one of the important things to take away from this whole conversation is that despite what magazines, media, and advertising tell us, most people do NOT base our value on our weight.
A-to- the-MEN. I was thinking of drafting a lengthy comment, but everyone above me as said it so well. You are strong, beautiful, and the way we carry weight does NOT define us!
DeleteI'm getting so heated just thinking about that blog (which I have never seen before but talk about heart-breaking!)
Wow, that is absolutely crazy and I'm so sorry about all of that. I feel bad that you're just trying to do your thing and someone used you for "thinspiration". Anyways.. I think anyone who reads your blog knows that you have achieved your body and "look" in a healthful way. Again, so sorry this happened to you <3
ReplyDeleteThank you Allie - I really hope that comes across in my writing!
DeleteI liked your comment on her blog. She has a really nasty spirit.
ReplyDeleteVery nasty. I was getting a bit sick to my stomach from reading some of her blog and reply comments.
DeleteThank you for your support, Christina & Jenn!!! It means a lot to me!
DeleteDon't read thinspo people's stuff? I don't know man, I just don't get it. I'm still in the camp of liking the left older picture waaaay better! Not because I'm into the whole bigger=healthier mindset. I just love the muscular look. Super skinny just isn't very interesting to look at for me, it goes in the category or skinny white blonde girl look. Maybe a lot of people strive for it, but it's kind of boring to me.
ReplyDeleteI used to buy into the whole thinspo, tinier-is-better thing but now it holds no appeal for me at all. It just seems kind of....bland.
DeleteI dont know what to say! I really dont.....ok, yeah I do but I WONT.
ReplyDelete:)
Keep lifting heavy and eating right honey.....do you....I will continue to follow.....and never visit her freaky ass site again.
and.......since you asked.....I would like to see you gain a little in your legs....ass is on point so lets gets some quads to match!!!!!
DeleteYou are beautiful
hahaha funny you say that Suzanne! That is EXACTLY the thought that crossed my mind when I took this week's progress pictures. I was like, where did my legs go?!?! boo. Oh well, the off season begins in 4 weeks!
DeleteI really don't even have words for that. Wow, what?! Anyways. You are awesome and keep doing what you do, why I love your blog.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Hollie! =)
DeleteWhoa. WTF. I honestly can not understand real thinspo that people use to have an ED. Honestly, I'm not sure those people have true eating disorders in the brain. I think they're just crazy and probably have some sort of other mental illness. I don't think there's anything you can or should do about this. People that actually read your blog know you're in contest prep right now, not starving yourself. You're strong and gorgeous and I love your blog.
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine intentionally setting out to create an ED within myself, either. It's so much torment and pain and frustration - I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, let alone myself.
Deletewe know your heart and your motives, they are stronger than ED. I'm sorry that people find that other post inspirational. It crushes my heart.
ReplyDeleteoh and i meant her blog, not your pictures. Just FYI
DeleteThank you so much for this comment Lindsay <3 <3
DeleteI had so many words to say but everyone else said it better! Haha! Obviously those comments come from deep insecurities. Both images of show you at a healthy weight. You look fab but not unhealthily skinny. Your blog is really interesting and readable. Don't worry about whether or not someone so insecure is looking to you for "thinspiration". You are healthy, strong and honest and it comes across in your blog!
ReplyDeletehaha - we've got a lot of eloquent and prolific writers over here! =) You're right - I can't write for the lowest common denominator when the vast, vast majority of my readers are intelligent and sane.
DeleteHoly shitballs . . . I felt sick reading that. And I reeeeally had to restrain myself from commenting!
ReplyDeleteI read a few posts of that blog, and I ended up feeling very sad for the writer. What a way to live :-(
Big props to you for not posting what you eat etc anymore, that is a really good thing of you to do. Even though I can't be nosy and see what you're eating anymore :-( Lol!
DEFINITELY not a good way to live. I think if she recovered, she could live a normal, happy, balanced life, but to recover, you have to believe that recovery is possible. =(
DeleteAs i'm not really into weight lifting (at the moment, not really in the right place for it) i don't read your blog religiously, but i check in often to see how you're doing. Your blog is always positive and interesting and anyone who calls you fat or skinny or manly or whatever is just trying to bring you down.
ReplyDeleteI've always thought you look fantastic, before you discovered your thyroid problem and now preparing for figure contests, you work hard for a body you're proud of. To appreciate what your body can do for you rather than punishing it with restriction is incredible.
Keep doing what you feel comfortable with, don't pander to someone else's needs, especially not Nicole's.
Haters gonna hate ;)xx
Thank you so much for this comment. This really, truly means a lot to me coming from you =)
DeleteI think that's when I knew I'd crossed over from ED-territory to having a healthy relationship with my body - it's not about how it looks anymore. It's wonderfully freeing!
OMG! I am so flattered at this article!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteJust curious, however... when have I EVER used the word, 'thinspiration' or 'thinspo' in my vocabulary except for at The Big Fat FAT Article?... and done so, I mind you, facetiously in relation to your trolling at GOMI?
Putting words into my mouth, eh Sable?
Better words than calories. ;)
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ReplyDeletesorry, but: haters gonna hate...
ReplyDeleteunfor. there's nothing you could do about it. we all know, contest prep, espe. in the end, is not normal eating behavior... just keep your goal in mind...
btw: skinny will only look good in cloth and for a couple of years... I'm 32 now... and noticed, that most of my "skinny" friends (no judging here) look kind of soft - while my years of training toned my body... prefer this way. ;-)
sabrina
I definitely prefer the "toned" (I know everyone hates that word) look to the skinny look! I just look ridiculous skinny. I'm too short-waisted, haha.
DeleteThat is something I want to bring attention to - the fact that contest prep is NOT normal or healthy or a great way to live - for most people.
I've noticed that really skinny people often look frail and older than they should as they age. I also prefer a more "toned" look.
Deleteugh, it is so unfortunate it has to be like this. just be yourself, and be healthy. EVERYONE!
ReplyDeleteI agree!!!
DeleteWow...that was a pretty hurtful and childish comment that gal made. I'm glad you reacted the way you did. It shows maturity and self respect which makes you an ideal role model.
ReplyDeleteAs for what to do, and what not to do, I don't think you should give up on #WIAW!!! As a fellow competitor I AM interested in what you ate, because it will help me be my best.
The thinpo gal has her own issues to deal with. You are not the root of her problem and there are a million other "skinny" blogs out there that she can read.
I suggest you just keep doing what you're doing, because it's awesome.
Nuf said.
I can hardly believe that anyone would have classified you as fat in the first place. I thought you looked amazing both then and now. I think you're reaction is really responsible, though, and I'm glad to see bloggers think about the impact they're having on their readers (I didn't used to).
ReplyDeleteokay, so i didn't read the most recent comments (i read your post last night) but i will totally admit to being an avid reader of nicole's blog... eight months ago, when i weighed 90 lbs at 5'5". i can't judge her as a person, and shouldn't, since i only see what she posts on her blog and nothing else. i thought her 'management' technique was genius when it is actually the opposite--recovery means a SUSTAINABLE lifestyle, and your blog posts, whether in prep or not, emphasize the need for sustainability in any fitness/health endeavor. your post today is awesome, too, and it makes me sad that any outside force would influence your writing. of course, being thinspo would be pretty insulting when you have come such a long way. aaanyway this is a long-winded way of saying thank you for being a voice of reason in the 'healthy' living world.
ReplyDeleteOh wow!! I am so glad that it sounds like you're recovering. That is my biggest problem with Nicole and her blog - I feel like what she writes normalizes eating disorders and makes people think it's okay to keep no food in the house, to have an anxiety attack because there might be sugar in their Starbucks, etc. I really hope to continue to be a voice of reason - I've seen so many people suffer, and have suffered so much myself. I really want to infuse a breath of fresh, and as you say, sustainable, air into the health/fitness community.
DeleteI'm sorry you were targeted by this very sick and pathetic idiot, Sable. I'm sure that she planned her words to be the most hurtful possible to you. It's not about you - remember that. It's all about her.The main reason she probably does this is she's jealous. And she has a LOT to be jealous of.
ReplyDeleteYou are truly in recovery from your ED, not just that, you are healthy, strong, achieving, well-liked, and you look awesome. Completely the opposite to her. There's nothing inspiring or successful about her life, but everything inspiring and successful about you. Keep on doing what you are doing - and thank you for showing us that we CAN totally participate in the fitness industry after an ED without becoming unhealthy or obsessed - I thought of you a lot recently on my return (after nearly 15 years of doing nothing!) to ballet - and decided i have nothing to lose by trying, if I respect my body. My body is a tool for me to enjoy dancing again - and I fuel it so I can dance, which is a battle, but dancing has always been so much more important than how I looked. Your body would look awful if you weren't fuelling it, and a dancer's body looks awful if they are too thin. So thank you for allowing me to see that.
You can't stop negative idiots from finding negativity everywhere they go - but the rest of the world have a lot to gain from you.
Fi - thank you so much for commenting. You are seriously one of my favorite bloggers and I am rooting for you every step of the way. You're an incredible person.
DeleteI'm so glad you're back into dancing! I really think that finding ways to use the body as something other than a status symbol or bauble or expression of who we are is one of the most important steps in recovery.
Im going to be honest here: I did go and read some of that chick's blog and comments. She's crazy. There is no other explanation. Oh she's crazy and a raging alcoholic.
ReplyDeleteThat is my opinion as well. Not a good combination.
DeleteBrutal! I love reading your blog because i can relate to you. I have never had an ED and even though i carry a little extra fat, i am happy with my body most of the time. There are so many bloggers saying "strong is the new skinny" but you can see they have major body image problems and appear to be on the verge of an eating/exercise disorder. I celebrate the fact that i eat healthy and can still have some wheaty sugary cake once in awhile and I really felt like i could relate to you. Now with the contest prep not so much but i still love following your journey.
ReplyDeleteI am not sure why women want to be skinny it looks gross...and all the men i know including my bf love a curvy girl...i think women try to be thin to impress other women. I swear whenever i sart losing fat my bf goes crazy and i swear he feeds me extra so i dont lose my curves...
Thank you so much Kylee =)
DeleteMax actually said that to me the other day - he said "I think you would look great if you gained a little fat." haha. Music to my ears ;-)
Kudos to you for recognizing that you're not the one with the problem here. You look great before, after and in between. Having said that, I've always been inspired far more by your attitude and honesty than any pictures you could possibly post :)
ReplyDeleteQuotes like that really show the dark side of "healthy living" blogs, and prove yet again why you are truly a breath of fresh air in the blog world.
All I gotta say is WOW! PPL and their issues! Skinny does not define healthy and your health is all what matters!!
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