I especially love compliments that are about something I can control. For example, I would prefer to be complimented on my work ethic than my hair; I'd rather someone express that they are impressed with my dedication to improving my body than my complexion.
So why, then, am I cringing at some of the compliments I've been getting?
Losing weight is a mind game, just like anything else.
When people say, "You look so much smaller!" I don't hear, "You look leaner!" - I worry that they mean I'm losing muscle and wasting away.
I mean, the fact is that I have gotten smaller (and hopefully not all of it is muscle). This is June's progress, for example:
|I know, the before picture is supposed to be on the left and the after should go on the right....sorry|
Better? So what - now I look good; before I looked average? Or now I look okay; before, I looked horrible?
I mean - I've weighed between 135 and 145 pounds for the vast majority of my life. (I hit 140 in 7th grade!) This new weight, this new look, doesn't feel like "me" yet. I know this is crazy, but hearing and admitting that I look better now kind of feels like a betrayal of.... myself. My natural self at (what seems to be) my natural weight.
I'm probably just thinking too much; dieting always messes with my head. Can anyone relate?
PS: I'm thinking about offering online training services (i.e. lifting & cardio programs for anyone who wants to gain muscle or strength, or maintain muscle while cutting). I would probably charge $30 a month for a new customized program every week. Is that something anyone would be interested in? For those of you who don't like to comment =) e-mail me - firstname.lastname@example.org.